Hardest Part Of Love

The hardest part of loving someone is missing them. Just think about all the emotion that goes into missing someone. There must be countless hours, days, weeks, months, years that go into getting to know someone enough that a little piece of you is missing every time they leave.

I don't know how military families go through it but I salute them all for they are stronger than I am.

The Computer Life

For years I've lived my life on the computer. I think I've finally come to the point in my life where I'm sick of sitting at a computer all day. I'm sure it will pass soon enough when these hard projects are over but I just found it odd that it took 13 years for me to finally be sick of working on a computer.

Today America Thanks Its Veterans

Today at church our pastor did something very cool for Veterans Day. Durring the service she asked anyone to stand up if they had family in WWI. About 3 people of the 80 people there stood up. She then asked if anyone was in WWII or had family in it. About half the people stood up. Next she went through Korea, Vietnam, Desert Storm and then Iraq. By the time she got to Iraq everyone but maybe 5 people were standing up and those who weren't that I could see where old and weren't able to stand.

It was very cool seeing how our veterans have touched each and every one of our lives. It makes you realize how much of an impact their decision to join the military has had on the outcome of your life. It also makes you wonder how easily things could have turned out and how differently things would be if they had made the ultimate sacrifice of giving their life for their country.

So thank you to all those who have server and thank you to all those who died giving me the ability to be here today.

Beautful Things

Mornings are beautiful if we'll just let them be.
Everyone have a great day.

Halloween

Halloween has to be my second favorite holiday other than The 4th of July. I'm leaving out birthdays and anniversary's. My favorite part is getting to wear my soldier stuff to work. On the 29th of October my company informed us that we were having the board of directors in and we wouldn't be able to have our Halloween Costume Contest this year. I email HR back asking if we could do it on another day but I never got a reply. This really pissed me off but at least I got to wear it out with the kids. Sawyer was a Bear and Beckett was a bee. The costumes weren't just cute they actually had some meaning behind them. Beckett's name means "bee keeper" so being a bee was perfect. Sawyer's name means "wood cutter" so maybe not the connection that I was thinking initially. So now I'm already looking forward to next Halloween, or the day I get to enlist whichever comes first. Note: Halloween will come first don't get scared I'm not doing anything rash.

Mental Implosion

Anyone ever had what they felt was a mental implosion? I have these multiple times a week and although the implosion is eminent my recovery from them is at times almost immediate.

I often wonder if it is healthy that I have these and that I don't ever work anything out after having them. I've always handled everything myself. I never ever talk about my emotions because I've always been good about handling them in my head. I know the fact that there is never any resolution is bad but I normally work things over in my head so much that it seems like there was a resolution.

Maybe I have less a depression type issue and something more like an anxiety disorder. Who knows but I'm sure I'll work it out in my head later.